{"id":5691,"date":"2021-12-10T13:49:26","date_gmt":"2021-12-10T13:49:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/intimatelyalive.com\/om-tanja\/"},"modified":"2022-01-29T12:18:49","modified_gmt":"2022-01-29T12:18:49","slug":"about-tanja","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/intimatelyalive.com\/en\/about-tanja\/","title":{"rendered":"About Tanja"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t
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Who am I, Tanja?<\/h2>

Once I believed that the more competent I was to help and hold space for others, the more accepted and loved I would be, both in my professional and private life. I slept very little and was always on the go – work, education, sports and social events. I ate after the changing dietary advices, rather than listening to my body’s needs and pleasure.<\/p>

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I ran to escape my feelings<\/h2>

In retrospect, I ran fast \u2013 way too fast! In order not to feel myself, my body, my feelings \u2013 my power and pain! But I also cut myself off from feeling the love and freedom, the qualities and the potential that was waiting inside me to be redeemed. I had bulimia and was close to a depression. It wasn’t until my body’s basic functions started to close down that I realised something was off and I reached out for receive help.\u00a0<\/p>

My inner journey and healing started. With loving assistance, my feelings and body were finally to be felt. I got in touch with a deep truth within me that I had overheard for far too long. Today I am grateful that my body screamed STOP and that I listened so I avoided getting seriously ill!<\/p>

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Inner upgrade – I became a mother<\/h2>

The next level of my inner journey was initiated in 2013 when I became pregnant and became a mother. A single I finally felt I had learned to embrace and respect my needs and boundaries – Now I was offered an upgrade: was I able to maintain these qualities as a mother and in a family?\u00a0 Despite knowing all my patterns quite well, I jumped right in once again! And I only managed to pull myself up just before I hit rock bottom. My daughter and close relationships are my greatest teachers. They mirror EVERYTHING in me, my patterns and everything I once shut down that needs to be remembered, felt, embraced and met with love.<\/p>

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Spirituality and sexuality<\/h2>

In 2012, I discovered that my sexuality is a pure and very big part of my essence. Since then, I have been on an inner journey to let go of inappropriate patterns, to feel and live my life from my heart, to embrace the life and mystery of my yoni \u2013 and very important – to unite the two. On the journey, I have met, redeemed and healed old pain \u2013 physically and emotionally. The journey is on-going and while it sometimes feels like I’m groping my way forward, I know I’m on my way HOME. Step by step, I open myself to more enjoyment and deeper relationships . I feel more alive, creative and free. I have traveled long enough to know that for me spirituality and sexuality in their essence is pure love and one. Just like everything else.<\/p>

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Gratitude<\/h2>

I am deeply grateful for my willingness and courage to open my heart, see and feel truth within, owning my part of the imbalances in my relationships, for my professional tools and for the indispensable support I get from my loved ones. Although the journey is not always pretty or easy, I feel that every step, even if the detours I do take, bring oceans of learning, wisdom and deep connection with myself and my loved ones. A life-long journey that I find infinitely beautiful.<\/p>

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I’d rather be authentic and trustworthy than perfect!<\/h2>

I have come to realise that it is more important to be authentic and trustworthy than to be competent. Both professionally and personally, it is my experience that the adventure and magic only begin to unfold when you own who you are \u2013 both in the best and the less pretty version. When you take responsibility for and give love to it all.<\/p>

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I believe in:<\/h2>